2015, fast forward, tadaaaaaa..it's already 2016, September and a lot has changed since then. Number one, I get a year younger (still in denial stage, a year shy from 40 years old @#$^&), a bit of wrinkles surrounding my eyes, hair drops, knee pain but one thing stays the same, my uplifted spirit to stay ahead in everything that I do.
The last time i blogged was about me starting a business. Fast forward again, the business seems to be at halt. Many aspect of my career has changed since then. Nope, I did not get a promotion, although I was supposed to get one, and the mgmt 'pinky pink yes i promise but nope no promotion with 5 people reporting under you and tight dateline ahead'...booooooooo..I'm now leading the Value Unlocking Program (VUP) for Generation Division, focusing on redesigning the Generation Future State. Complex matter it is indeed. A very tough role to play, and being a safety girl at heart, strategic mgt was never my thing, i don't even want to go close to it. The first time i reported duty, I was called in for a central meeting. Mind you, the words that these people use are like alien to me "DNA - who cares about DNA, I'm not a doctor by profession anyway", what else, oh!oh! " sources of values - The only value i care about is the value for money i get when i buy tons of lipstick" and the list goes on.
So today marks the 26th week leading the VUP team (yes, we are that accurate in determining the exact time since we reported duty) , and for the first time since we reported duty, we finally met the Officer Number 1, naah! Not the PM, it's our TNB CEO to report the progress of the VUP. I'll be lying to I say I'm not scared. Not because of him though, but due to the fact that I was not really mentally, truly believing the content of our own presentation. We had to be present the aspiration, the design options and the way forward. I have not really anchored my thoughts to mentally absorb all the contents of the presentation, not to mention that number of slide changes we need to go through right until 5 minutes before the presentation itself.
Half of my team, smiling (pretending to smile) for the camera. Say cheese!
The one thing i hate with these sort of meetings, there is not a single smile, no jokes, why so serious guys
So, anyway, back to reality, the outcome turns out more grey that I have ever expected. We thought it will provide us with ease to move ahead with our next plan, but it looks like we have to hold on to the plans until the next direction is set. God works in many ways, so I take it as His way of guiding and helping us in this time of complexity.
Rain or shine, work has to go on. What I can conclude is, having your own business, although a lot more stressful, brings you greater joy coz you're able to decide your own path and goals. But in an organisation as big as the one I'm working now, it's such a headache. Tons and tons of presentations, syndications, paperwork, presentation, presentation, presentation, OMG!It really tests you as a person.
Anyway, I'm glad it's all over temporarily. Phewwwwww! Although it might not be for long!
